As I move through life, I have taken it upon myself to discover that promises and forgiveness can be just as easily thrown away in the time they are brought upon us. I am only human and no matter how much I endeavour, I can never be quite what I am expected to be. There are a lot of words that get tossed around, some that will leave all state of mine and some that will eternally dwell. Though, nothing has resided like the words once spoken to me ‘Don’t let that get you down, no ones perfect. No one can be perfect’. These are the words I am choosing to learn and grow off. I know that no matter what I say, it cannot make my life easier or your judgement towards me any diverse but, I believe that we all deserve a chance to spread our opinions across. Weather they be heard by a crowd or undermined. I have discovered that to most of this world I am a nobody, who survives off the gleaming hope we all have inside ourselves. I am still trying to pick up the pieces that are my life and reorganise them to make something worth living for. Until that puzzle is solved, I am stuck trying to fit into a place I don’t quite understand.
To those very few precious people who have tried, no matter how much to help me or who have given me a friendship these past few years are the ones who truly deserve a thankyou. Then there are the people I am apologising to. I know a million sorrys can’t fix things, but I am to say sorry to those I have, or may in the future hurt.
There is a saying, “beauty is only skin deep”, and this is an old yet reliable saying. Our appearance these days is one thing we take for granted. Beauty will only ever get you half way through life and with this, im trying to discover the true beauty that lies underneath. So far only the ugly packaging has been discovered.My true identity is something that has never been fully and truly shown even to the closest of people in my life. to show the real me it takes much more than the time I have and it is not something that can be explained overnight, but something we all have hidden wether we have figured out its there or not.Because even when it feels like there’s no reason to be here, there is always one person who proves you wrong. - 28/12/07
