unrealistic goals

Late one night I sat on my couch and flicked through the channels. I noticted one particular channel directed at woman showing how they are supposed to look and what we are all suppose to aim for. It made my heart sink as each and every girl on this show was about four sizes smaller then me, i could count every one of there ribs and there legs looked as fragile as twigs.

One particular lady quoted that "beauty is skin deep, any deeper and its layers of fat" I don't really know why but at that moment I wished I was like them, I wish I could walk around in barely anything and look the way they did. So I tried, I tried to diet and that didn't work. I tried to cut down on food then i tried to stop eating and yet I stayed the same while everyone around me looked so much more beautiful.

Last night I flicked through the channels and landed on the same channel I had been on weeks before. Something caught my eye. It was a lady who had curves, who had a bum and had a stomach. she was standing in her bra and undies. she was a model, she wasn't afraid to be who she was. she said "I am beautiful, I am me and no girl who is a size O can compare to what I have, I'm not going to hide I am going to show the world what god has given me"

That night I looked at myself in the mirror and for the first time in weeks i didn't feel ashamed of who i was. It was amazing that a woman who i can hardly remember the name of could remind me that there is nothing more beautiful then a girl with confidence.