I am still so scared that every time I slow down and give myself a chance to think my mind will catch up with reality and thats the worst thing that could possibly happen right now. I wish that I could close my eyes and not have these images flood my mind. I wish I could handle it, on the outside I am fine but I wish someone could see though me and give me the help I sometimes need. I can’t do it on my own but I’m too scared to let anyone know that I need there help.